The struggle of “sick season”

Prednisone was beginning to be a miracle worker, per usual. I literally felt like super woman lol It was so so soooo nice to be in the gym full force and have energy to get up in the morning and last throughout the day. Today was just one giant step backward. That is, if this is my flare breaking through the prednisone or the dreaded viruses/bugs you see this time of the year. I know that it is inevitable to have days like this, but it was such a drastic change from how I was feeling. That is, after I weighed myself and totally freaked out at the number 93 that popped up in front of my feet. I even got off and back on to make sure it wasn’t just the scale. Nope, it was the truth. I’ve lost about 7lbs in just a few days.

I’ve consistently been on 40 mg of prednisone for about two weeks now. Side affects, oh the side affects. Just noticed my face getting puffy 😦 and my mood swings have been so frustrating to not only me but the people around me. It’s so strange how medication can affect your head. I am like a crazy person one minute and the next I’m in the best mood ever and I know exactly when it’s the medicine. I have tried to control it by recognizing when I get that crazy feeling (I know it sounds weird) and then taking a step backward whether that be just stop talking/doing what I’m doing or explaining to the person I am being crazy towards/around the dealio. It’s hard being on prednisone around people who don’t understand how big it’s affects are lol They don’t believe it can actually make you angry, emotional, super happy, or anything. It’s hard getting anyone to understand anything about the medications we take, how we feel, etc. But all we can do is try.

Although my rapid weight loss I’m not sure if this is my Crohn’s acting up more or a bug/virus. My mom was sick last night and today and I started feeling terrible today. I still have no appetite, to the point where I need to force myself to eat. I know it’s not the healthiest thing (which drives me crazy because eating good and being fit/healthy is so important to me) but when I can’t eat I try to drink a lot of my calories whether it be 550 calorie drinks from Starbucks, juices, or even soda. I am at the point where anything I can tolerate I need to eat. If I lose anymore weight I could be looking at a hospital stay. One thing I’ve been good at this time around is staying hydrated. I cooked a bunch of food tonight thinking I’d eat more if it was already made (it works most of the time) but healthy food just rips up my stomach, ugh. It’s so frustrating. I needed to eat something desperately tonight. I had to resort to McDonald’s chicken nuggets and French fries. I still to this day have no idea how or why that is the only food I can eat when I’m really flaring up but if you have Crohn’s or colitis you know you will do or eat anything you can to keep weight on. Because losing too much weight usually, as I said earlier, results in a hospital stay.

Well I had to take a pain pill because of my stomach pain tonight -___- And it made me feel pretty weak, Weak enough to not want to keep typing lol but my stomach pain is better and I’m a little hungry so I’m gunna try to eat something. Apologies that this post was pretty damn boring but sometimes I just needa write for myself. Sweet dreams everybody 🙂 Happy Tuesday.

-xoMichelle