Hey! 🙂 First of all, today marks almost exactly 13 months of me having this blog! I couldn’t be happier with the outcome of it so far. I’ve talked to people all over the world through this and have met some truly amazing people. This past year has been nothing but a roller coaster. It’s been calming down lately being on Entyvio, but side effects still prevail… You have to weigh though what you’re willing to go through to feel good, and compared to some of the stuff I’ve been through these side affects are pretty miniscule.
But on another note, Crohn’s never fails so remind you “Hey! I’m still here, don’t forget about me!” even when you’re at your healthiest. I’ve had a few days here and there with severe stomach pain and exhaustion. A lot of people think that just because you’re having a bout of feeling good, it means your cured. Well people, there is NO cure for Crohn’s disease! I know people who don’t experience it have a hard time grasping it but it drives me crazy when someone thinks I’m cured just because I’m feeling good right now. We just go into remission (sometimes clinical, sometimes you just know), and that could last weeks, months, and for the lucky ones even years. But it is so unpredictable it could come and bite you in the ass within seconds, minutes, or hours. Don’t get me wrong, overall I am still feeling pretty great, but I’m starting to think my body is programmed that after I feel good for a few weeks it just sends a little reminder, you’re still sick! Don’t forget! lol It’s really frigggen annoying. The other day I couldn’t eat anything without having severe abdominal pain I literally had to concentrate on breathing just to get through them. They’re almost worse than the really awful flares and hospital stays because they interrupt your workout, delicious dinner, class, or whatever you’re doing just to remind you you’re not completely normal. They interrupt your times of feeling so good you almost forget the disease is even there.
I haven’t been in remission in probably 10 years, and if you were to ask my doctor, looking at my latest colonoscopy, I’m still not “clinically” in remission, but I have very mild active disease. Now seeing it written down that sounds crazy I have been constantly battling this for ten years with few to no breaks from it. I’ve been diagnosed for about thirteen years, but I definitely had it several years before my PCP just had a stick up his ass and wouldn’t give me a referral to a specialist. But, like I’ve said before having this disease has made me into who I am. And like people say some things keep you humble, this disease is definitely one of them. Each little “hello, I’m still here” puts it all in perspective. It allows me to live everyday to the fullest because it literally could be your last.
I can’t believe it’s already been a year I’ve had my blog. Thank you to everyone whose been following along and whose read some of it! And thank you to all f my fellow Crohnie’s who have supported me! 🙂
But, it’s time to watch the Bachelor 😀 I’ll catch ya all later!