I haven’t written in a while, probably because I’ve for the most part felt pretty good. Until probably a week ago. Had a few drinks, a handful of popcorn, less sleep than normal, stress from school, and while I was at it might as well have just have swallowed a few razor blades -__- lol and that was not a joke. I do my best to hide when I feel like absolute dog poo, but sometimes you just needa let it out (no pun intended). Besides my mom this is the only place I really let it out. No one really can comprehend the fact that one day you might be able to climb mount Everest and be on top of the world and the next you are on your death bed begging your nurse to feed you some jello. But us Crohnie’s have pretty much accepted that’s how life works for us. The hard part about it all is finding someone who can actually deal with that, or care enough to try to deal with it. It’s not a life anyone wished for but i’s the only life we have. Honestly, I wouldn’t trade it for anything because it has taught me how to live each day like it’s my last, and that isn’t just a cliché statement. I wouldn’t be the person I am today if I was never diagnosed with this stupid disease 10 years ago. Yeah, it’s stupid but I’m just thankful my life experiences have helped others along the way. Sometimes you’re going to get discouraged and that’s with anything in life. But when it’s with you’re health it’s a little bit harder. It’s beyond your control and sometimes you just need a shoulder to lean on. It’s actually really hard because most people around you, in your life probably think you’re perfectly fine but it’s those “commmmon michelle you can take that shot” or the “don’t be a pussy you can do it” (excuse my French) but that stuff will push you over. Be strong enough not to give into it. I’m kind of a hypocrite saying this but just take it from a veteran Crohnie. don’t give in.
I guess the take home message in this short blurb is make sure you have someone next to you that understands, or at least will be there for you.. even when you poo your pants :p